A year ago, we took a major step in our path to buy a new home. A year ago, we kept our appointment to see the inside of a house that looked good from the outside. I wrote more about this day a year ago in this blog post.
During every step of the buying a new house process, we prayed. I prayed intensely--and I felt guided through every step.
I know that skeptics will be able to explain away this feeling of presence. They will say that I felt guided because my prayers made me more observant and more intentional. They may be correct. Perhaps that is how prayer works.
Why can't I keep up this level of prayer with every set of decisions? Why do I feel it must be a big decision, like a home purchase, that warrants my asking God for help?
I do believe in a God that yearns for a daily intimacy with all of us. I've been taught that a level of daily intimacy requires lots of communication. I confess that I can find all of that communication exhausting.
I confess that the fear of potential exhaustion sometimes keeps me silent.
So today, let me say a prayer of thanks for guidance past. Let me say a prayer of apology for all the times I've gone silent. Let me say a prayer of intention and hope to do better in the future.
feeling the feelings…
6 months ago